Just to hold me over....

We were so blessed last night to get 2 new pictures of Judah! He has now been moved from his foster family back into the orphanage. I really feel for him right now, as that means that the turmoil in his little heart has begun. Leaving his foster family, which is really the only family he has ever known, is surely a difficult thing, for him and for them as well. I really hate this process sometimes. There is really nothing pretty about it. I just hate the idea of all these transitions in his little life. When stability is something so important to a developing child, he has to endure everything but that.

And next week, we cause yet another transition. While I am SO very excited to meet him and bring him into our family, I also feel a little twinge of guilt. I know in the long run, the change will be a good one. But in the short term, it kills me. I feel a little like a kidnapper. I read a blog post by another adoptive mama, (who also has a Jude, by the way!) which described it perfectly. The fear. The confusion. It makes me cringe to think that I might cause those feelings in him.

It's an exciting time right now, yes. But this time is also a little tainted. So, if you think about it, say a little prayer for my Judah....that he would have peace. That somehow, in his little toddler mind and heart, he would understand even a little bit of what is happening.....and that he'll be ok with it. That we would know how to comfort him. That the transition and bonding happen quickly. And mostly, that he would somehow know and understand, that we will never, ever leave him. That this is forever. And that he is loved.

Can't wait to share the rest of the story with you all from China. For now though, I think I better start packing...in 48 hours, we'll be on our way!

Oh, I almost forgot the pictures!! He was described as a "lively, cheerful, intelligent child, he is very good, and walking."